another day passing by as usual.
with nothing for me to say this time.
i'm just sitting here stoning.
as usual, waiting for my phone to ring.
to at least get a msg.
being online doesnt make a difference,
cos i have nothing to do besides chatting.
it doesnt become a nessesity(sp?) even.
i seriously need something to take my mind off certain things.
it's just too tiring to even think.
i'm getting sick&tired of just waiting.
maybe i'll just stop thinking.
or maybe even ignore my own feelings.
ignore everything around me.
it just gets too sucky .
ignoring seems simple,
but ignoring my own feelings is not what i do.
i dont always do that.
the feeling is just crapped up.
i may seem happy outside & all.
that's what you think i am.
but on the inside, i'm a totally different person.
on the inside, i'm not me.
even smiling seems hard now.
hah.. who am i trying to bluff,
maybe those around me will never know.
yeah, i guess that's what's happening now.
i'm lying to the whole world.
guess that's my fav thing to do now aye ?
oh wells. i dont actually bother.
cos i'm lying to myself,
it's all a lie.
well, i shall end here then.
goodbye for now.
maybe i might not blog that often any longer.
my life doesnt seem to be any much interesting.